Health-bent

I have spent a good portion of the day reading recipes (and other things) on the "Health-bent" website:

http://www.health-bent.com/

So excited to try these recipes. They look amazing and some of the articles were really inspiring.

I am glad to say that my nauseousness is lifting a little bit each day. I am a little less tired too. I went out of the house today! Except for one dr appt, that's my first excursion in 10 days. I went to Whole Foods and bought some fun ingredients for some of the recipes on Health-bent.

Also, in case anyone is wondering, I have lost 7 lbs since starting this trial. Not that that is really the point of this for me (though of course its not unwelcome) but I figured I'd make note.

This omnivore has a dilemma

I think I have mentioned this before, but this little trial of mine is not an easy one for me. Not because I have not spent most of my life trying all sorts of ridiculous and extreme eating regimes, but probably because of this fact. (How was that for an artful double negative!?)

I am totally over food restrictions! I don't have a problem with cutting back, eating less, eating wisely, eating healthfully, but I have a grave difficulty with the idea of eliminating things from my diet (not of course, things like pesticides, artificial food coloring, high fructose corn syrup and the like). I have finally come to a place in my life where I am pretty content in my skin. Of course, I wouldn't mind losing a few pounds but only if the process of doing so is comfortable and in line with my lifestyle, otherwise I'm fine the way I am. I believe in quality over quantity, good food, moderation in all things, blah, blah, blah. So, to have it suggested that whole groups of food like "cereal grains", "dairy", "alchohol" (yes, that is a food group in my mind!) etc... could be the culprit in these health problems that I have always faced is really difficult for me to swallow. Man, I have just finally gotten somewhat sane about food!!!!!

It has been even more than just conceptually difficult for me in the last week. I had surgery on my sinuses exactly one week ago today. I had assumed it would be a pretty minor ordeal, but recovery has NOT been easy. (How the hell do people get addicted to plastic surgery???? Surgery BLOWS!!!) It has been a week now and I still feel wretched. The headaches and intense nausea have only started to slightly lift today. I am still dizzy and exhausted. With constant nausea, fare like pork chops and green beans is just completely unappetizing. Nothing on my "extreme-strict-autoimmune-paleo OK list" sounds ok to me.

So, I have been allowing myself what I consider a "gateway" food- potatoes. I am Irish. I like potatoes. A LOT! When I feel sick, they are the only thing I can conceive of eating. When I was pregnant (and nauseous) with my son, I only wanted mashed potatoes. With my daughter, I only ate stew that was mostly potatoes. With this nausea all I wanted was broth and potatoes. And so it has been.

Though, I am certainly convinced there could be merit to this paleo theory of autoimmune issues and I am a proven champ at crazy eating regimes, I feel reluctant to commit to an austere "universal" approach to this way of eating. I see myself as a "generalist." What I do generally doesn't have to be universal. What I eat most of the time doesn't have to dictate my always. I am being pretty fastidious about grains, dairy and alchohol, but I am not completely convinced of the problem with potatoes, rice, beans. I might need to do a little more research for a good argument. (I don't like to participate in arguments, but I like to read them!)

I am also not saying I will never consume grains, dairy or alchohol again. (another double-negative!) Faced with something fabulous, I will indulge. But, for the day-to-day of sustenance, its not that hard to steer my eating in a certain direction.

So, when I saw my surgeon yesterday for my post-op appointment, he indicated that the dire state of my membranes was caused by problems with inflammation. Here was I thinking all along that the sinus infections were causing problems with my lupus. It hadn't occurred to me that my lupus was likely responsible for my sinus issues (among other things.) Inflammation is the key word here folks, when we are talking about autoimmunity. Inflammation is what the paleo experts claim we can avoid through this way of eating. So, I remain resolute in my trial yet aiming for a modicum of balance in my extreme.

progression

Though, I have still been feeling intermittently crappy this week, I am attributing it to other things (the constant, chronic sinus infection aggravating my lupus.) I talked to my ENT yesterday about it and asked if the chronic infection could be responsible or if I should be seeing a rheumatologist too. He said that he definitely believes it could be the cause, that many people who don't even have lupus feel like they have chronic fatigue syndrome when they have chronic sinus infections. He also said that before he had his surgery, he felt like he had a flu for 7 months. My surgery is scheduled for next Wednesday and I am really optimistic that the surgery combined with this approach to eating will have me feeling a lot better soon.

One very wonderful thing I am noticing while eating this way, is that I am not very hungry. I used to be hungry all the time. I ate 5-6 small meals (or meals and snacks) a day. They were always healthy and nutririous but I would get very light-headed, dizzy and shaky (and cranky) if I didn't eat regularly. I was always thinking about what and when I would get to eat next. I got out of bed specifically with thoughts of breakfast on my mind. That has quite dissipated. I still think about food a lot, but I am not really hungry. I don't even want breakfast for a few hours.

For the first 10 days, I was eating lots and lots of food. I wasn't counting calories or anything, but I was snacking on nuts and berries between meals and eating hearty portions of all of this wonderful, yummy food. A little disappointed with the fact that I wasn't making much headway with this "baby-weight" (if you can still call it that 3.5 years later) and interested in testing this new found lack of hunger, I decided that while I was going aggressive on the auto-immune paleo track, I would also cut calories and see how I do. Since reading Ray Kurzweil's book about life extension and also about the Okinawan's longevity I have been interested in calorie restriction anyway. I just don't have an interest in it, if it makes me miserable (I am done with that lifestyle!)

So, for the last two days I have limited myself to 1200 calories a day, no nuts, no alcohol, no nightshades, no eggs, etc... Yesterday I ate:

Breakfast: 1 pink grapefruit

Lunch: 4oz grilled salmon, salad with lettuce, 1 grated carrot, mushrooms, half an avocado, balsamic vinegar and a dash of olive oil

Snack: an apple and approximately 20 cold shrimp

Dinner: 1 pork loin chop (recipe here: http://gavanmurphy.com/herb-grilled-pork-chops/print/), green beans (cooked in the slowcooker all day with garlic and chicken broth) and 1/2 roasted beet.

Evening: 1/2 apple and Wild Sweet Orange Tea with 1 tsp honey

The wonderful thing is I feel fine and I am not hungry. I think starting out with a relaxed approach and unlimited amounts of the "right" foods got my body ready and regulated my hormones. If I had just jumped into this restriction, I probably would have found it really difficult. Not that I haven't pushed through difficult in the past, but I have done WAY too much of that and I am not interested in living like that anymore. I refuse to return to disordered eating and work everyday to strike a balance that is healthy and sane. Though I do firmly believe that much of the disordered eating of my youth was tied into that fact that I felt miserable and diet was at the heart of it. I just didn't have the solution. I have been dancing around it my whole life.

I am eager to see if this is the solution...

to be or not to be

I have always worked very hard trying to be a bon vivant. It's not my nature, but its what I aspire to. My inner ascetic has a much louder voice. I would like to do things because I enjoy them, be more process-oriented rather than product-oriented, that whole human-doing rather than human-being thing.... I am working on it really and I think I have gotten a lot better in my "old age" (yes, I am regularly being reminded that I am getting old lately, thank you.)

What does this have to do with my paleo trial, you might ask? Well, I think that is the reason I have been resistant to jumping into a very strict form of it. I get a little uncomfortable with inflexibility around food (I'm sure a knee-jerk reaction to the fanaticism of my youth- which was oh so long ago, I hardly remember!) Anyway, I was extra flexible last night and I have been REALLY flexible around my favorite vice (wine) all along. Alcohol is not recommended at all on the paleo thing if one has an auto-immune disorder (but I chose to ignore that, in deference to the inner bon-vivant I am trying to nurture.)

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty crappy today and yesterday. Ugh. So I think the time has come to really put this theory to the test and do it properly. So, along with grains, legumes and dairy, I am going to do a week without wine and really limit eggs, nuts and tomatoes too.

(If you are interested in reading more about the connection between grains and autoimmunity, this is a good article to begin with: http://www.beyondveg.com/cordain-l/grains-leg/grains-legumes-1b.shtml#autoimmunity or "The Paleo Diet" by Loren Cordain)